So I am the cause of your lust, huh?|A woman’s response to the modesty message

“Ladies, if you didn’t dress so revealing we wouldn’t have such a struggle with lust. Keep it covered up.”

 - Tweeted by a well-known Christian Athletic Ministry


For the past 10 years I have been the listening ear of…stories.  Not just any story you read in books. But the stories of human hearts. Particularly the journeys of the female heart. Continue reading



Despite the bumps and crevices, Apart from the flaws and blemishes, Can you find me?


In the world of technology, we have every opportunity to paint the picture and image in which we wish to be portrayed.  Like a canvas to an artist, we have the “power” to create this image of ourselves which both highlights what we want to highlight as well as “hide” our blemishes.  It is quite easy to appear to be something we want others to see, love, and accept.  Yet even with this “power,” a fear lurks behind the curtain ~ behind the facebook, behind the instagram, behind any fame and image we have acquired….will we still be loved and worthy to be truly known? Continue reading


The power of MY sexuality

A woman’s body was made shapely, curvy, beautiful in my opinion. Men like the female body because it is different than their own.  I like to think of the female body being curvy because of all the dimensions that a woman carries ~ A woman has an amazing ability to “carry” multiple things at once.  She also has the form to carry out these tasks with dignitiy and grace.  Continue reading


Hannah’s Cry

Psychological-Side-of-InfertilityLately my heart has been on the ones who have attempted to get pregnant, who have tried everything possible, and are still waiting.  Some have received negative reports from the doctors, stating that even their 1% chance of pregnancy is slim.  I have friends who have been given words and promises from the Lord that they WILL bear a child.  They are courageously believing the word of the Lord over any reports of man. And I personally know people who were once told that they could not conceive but now have children (several several stories)! Yet even with these stories of hope, promise, and encouragement, even with KNOWING that one day you will have a child, I know that there are still times of struggle.  That is what I want to address today. I know that as a single person, I receive a lot of “christineze” statements. Statements that are supposed to be a healing balm, but really are just answers so that the void of mystery and not-knowing is filled with “something.”  

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A Word for American Christian Leaders

Many times God gives me a message in a dream to relay to people personally, to myself personally, or to the Body in general.  I am not anyone special, I do not have my own ministry, I do have pastoral covering, but I am simply a daughter of God who wants to hear from the heart of Him.  I am sharing this dream out of obedience ~ let the Spirit bring discernment on it. The dream was detailed, but I have just written the short interpretation.  This is attentioned to the Christians leaders of the American church and Christian organizations.

I feel that this dream is two-fold.  1) To warn of personal agendas and motives in the church ~  instead of lifting up Christ and preaching about the cross and the Kingdom of God, there are personal agendas and self-teachings that promote our own desires and kingdoms 2) it encourages the leaders who feel “hidden.”  And who often feel “less than” or ridiculed or not popular based upon their obedience to preach the true gospel of Jesus.  They are the ones concerned about God’s heart, not their own agenda.

 ~ Dream April 14th 2015~

I had a dream about leaders in the church seducing the people with their words.  They “wooed” with their words to keep popularity and to keep building programs.

Then I saw that there were people hidden.  God had intentionally hid the ones that were after His heart and not their own agenda.  The ones hidden were specifically brought to another place.  The leaders still tried to seduce the ones hidden but they were protected and they rejected the leaders words, on behalf of recognizing God’s truth.

Because of this, the hidden ones were not “popular” in the eyes of man.  But God was strategically placing them where He wanted them.

There are some leaders who have been tested in this area and you have been faithful to Jesus!  You have refused to give in to the pressure to build your name, build your church, build your reputation and instead have pointed others strictly to Jesus.  GOD SEES YOU.

There are some who have entertained the flattering words of leaders who have personal agendas.  Their words have romanticized your heart and have fed into your own desires and egos.  If you continue following this road instead of taking up the cross of Jesus and following Him, this will end in your own destruction.

There are some who have been deeply wounded and betrayed within the church or Christian organizations.  This is an opportunity for you to embrace Jesus and embrace the workings of the cross.  If you choose to embrace Jesus in your woundings and allow Him to come into those places, the cross you bear will become like the tomb rolled away and you will experience the same resurrecting power that Jesus did.  You will be moved by the heart of God and thus He will use you to move this world into His heart and the knowledge of Him.  If, however, you choose to remain in offense and not submit to Jesus in your woundings, the tomb will become your own grave.

It is TIME for the American church to prepare and become the BRIDE of Christ.  He is wanting a Bride, not a passive girlfriend.  It is time to stop seeking God for His benefits, and instead seek Him for His own heart.

~Mary Lacy ~


There is no guarantee…and God is still good.

dust2I will first start off by saying this is not a “feel good” article. This is raw writing ~ with honest emotions, no hiding under any blanket of comfort. Raw and honest with life. But even greater and more powerful than the rawness of humanity and frailty is the reality of the goodness of God. And that even in the raw-ness…there is hope.

It wasn’t until this past season where almost everyone close around me was experiencing instability, uncertainty, and trials like never before that I saw the rawness and lack of security of what we have in this life. The “dust of the earth” became more of a reality to me.  The grasp we think we have is never a grasp at all. The control we think we have is no control at all.

It is extremely easy and deceptive to think that “this” or “that” will provide some form of security. An unshakeable fortress, if you will.  Even looking at friends lives, especially the Facebook newsfeed, appear to show lives with such security, comfort, and stability. Those looking on the “news feeds” of others could perceive that others have better circumstances, more stability, more security. When the reality of life is – there is no guarantee in anything. There is no guarantee that “this” will be here tomorrow.

Is He enough?

I personally have never looked at life this way until recently. It wasn’t until this past season where I knew going into a situation of much sacrifice that there still wasn’t any guarantee. That God and God alone had to be my security. One day I woke up and realized – There is no guarantee in this.  That I had to believe in God’s love for me enough to know that His love was the only guarantee I had.

The Bible tells of a story – a man named Joseph who was placed in prison for 13 years – AFTER being betrayed by his own family. When I think of being in prison for 13 years I think – How in the world did he make it? The only thing we are told is…”And God was with him.”  God’s presence alone sustained him, got him through, day in and day out.

Is God’s presence enough to sustain us?
Is God’s presence enough of a guarantee?
Is God’s presence enough to let us know that we are never alone, never forsaken?

As much as we think that we can, we cannot plan out our lives with the security that what we have set in place will be there. Its the humble awareness that we truly belong to the care of Another. That the only form of control that I truly have is through my choice to lean into God…and only into God. Nothing or no one will ever be able to bring us security and nothing is ever guaranteed.

To reach a place where you believe that God is good enough that he is ALL to grasp onto…

Anxiety and worry has always been a stronghold for me. And I hate it. It steals, it kills, it destroys. It creeps into my life and at times literally paralyzes me from living a full, abundant life. Recently I was in a situation where I wrestled and struggled with anxiety – and anxiety was winning. One day on a walk I heard the Lord’s voice speak “Who is your God?” And He was serious about it. As the thoughts of ‘what if, ‘what could be’ ran through my mind, I heard God address it and say – Who is your God?

The problem with our grasping, the problem with our anxieties, is that deep down we question – God, do you see? God, do you know? God, do you hear? We question God’s heart towards us. Can we get to a place where we believe that God is good enough in that He is ALL we grasp onto? That He is THAT good. That we do not need to grasp onto anything else BUT Him…

“You sleep well because you know you are loved…”

Recently I saw the movie “Exodus: Gods and Kings” This one line caught me, as Ramses spoke over his sleeping son – You sleep well because you know you are loved…  Can we get to a place where we are so secure that God Himself is our guarantee. To believe that He is THAT committed to us. He laid His life down to demonstrate —You have all of Me. What would make me not trust the hands that still have the proof of being wounded and pierced for me? How could I not trust that sacrificial love?

When I realized and accepted through my situations that there was no guarantee, an interesting thing occurred. A new-found freedom came to me. I “grabbed on” to everything in my life with a looser grip. I realized that “this” could not provide any security for me, just as much as holding onto a chunk of sand would be able to stay in my grasp.  It too could be here one moment and gone the next.

And now…I am choosing to live in the belief, every single day, that I am deeply loved by a God that is unshakable.  With Him as my security, holding on only to Him, I too could sleep at night, every night, no matter what was going on.  That though things may be uncertain, I am certain of this: I am loved, thoroughly loved, and that the God of Love will continually be with me, in all things.  That He DID see.  That He DID know. That He DID hear.  And that His love alone would continually provide all things that I need in my life.  Though in “this” life there is no guarantee…I have one unshakeable guarantee: The Love of God will never fail me. I am loved.  He is with me.  And that Love is enough to sustain me…through and through…